Chapter:4

Have you ever heard expression express your feelings? How on earth am I supposed to express my feelings when I don't even know what am I feeling.?

It's weekend so I don't have to get out of bed till 11 o'clock...…..

 Let's see how my first week of freshman year went.

 I was late on my first day, I lost my journal, and I got humiliated by a senior in our school named Josh  and...Kristina knows him 

Oh my God, I completely forgot about that. I grab my phone from the side table to call Kristina she picks up on the third Ring "Hello, what's up?" she said

"What's up is How do you know Josh what so ever," I ask

" Listen, Can I tell you about it after the weekend? I am out of town" she said 

"Okay, but you owe me an explanation." Then I hung up the call

 So Kristina is away from the town I don't want to go to the park. Am I the only person who has nothing better to do?

I wonder what's like to have a room all to myself because I share my room with my younger sister Ashley. There's just a  three-year difference between us. I'm 15 and she's 12

 but we are so close. let's check up on her

I get out of the room to check if maybe she is in the living room I look around but she is nowhere to be found.

then I noticed she was sitting on the right beside Mom's bedroom door. She looks like she has been crying, her cheeks are red sometimes when she is crying her cheeks turn red I have to say she looks cute. I sit beside her "Hey, what's wrong ?"I ask her

 

"Funny things, I was in my mom's room when I found this," she says holding up a file.

 what papers? Oh my god this cannot happen now..…she found her adoption paper 

"Jessica please tell me that this is some kind of a joke, please," she says as she wipes her tears

I wish there was a way I could make her forget about it. but at this point, I can't lie to her 

" I can't... " As soon as I said that she looked at me and then ran towards the front door 

I should probably go after her she should have a space.....

Mom's at work and Dad's not in town I called my mom and let her know what happened she said she could be back around 3:30 I looked at the clock it's 1:30 now. What does it?

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thirty minutes later there's an unknown call from a number on my phone 

"Hello. this is ahh.....Jessica Millers "

It sounds like a boy"Yes who are you" 

"I'm Shawn. Hey, your sister fell from her bike and she is not okay Nothing to be worried about just Send me your address and I'll make sure she is okay safe and sound .......oh and I have something important to do but my buddy here will drop her. okay?"

"Hm them.... I'll text you the address"

 I ended the call and texted him the address. ugg today's really messy day 

10 minutes later there was at the door I opened the door and the second I laid eyes on the person behind it like an idiot I closed the door 

What the hell he's doing here Josh Why is he here?

I opened the door but this time Ashley's standing right next to Josh.

 "You okay? I ask her

"Fine, I guess "She turns to Josh as she says "Thank you. "

 Ashley comes into the house and silently ss on the  couch walk 

After a few minutes, Mom walked in ............... she looked so upset  crying .." We wanted to tell you when you were 18 "she said as she sat near Ashley

 Ashley looked up to her " I'm okay. Just tell me the truth"

 I will tell you everything starting with the three friends in college. Bella got married before the two of us left town .... the last time I saw her was at your mom's wedding the last time 

your parents died in a car crash. You were saved because you were with you're Aunt Emma 

She was very young at that time so she couldn't adopt you. so she came to me

You were a thousand times cuter than Jessica. I couldn't say no. that's it"Ashley remained quiet she was looking at the carpet." Can I see her? Emma.